Phone calls before 8 a.m. are never good news.....This morning was no exception. I won't go into details, but my husband is a pastor and had 3 disturbing phone calls before my feet hit the floor this a.m. I really do love my life and I wouldn't trade it for someone else's, unless they were debt-free, with a house that needs no improving, and children that look like mine, but behave like the ones in old movies that say, "Yes, Fatha, Yes Mum."
But really, being a pastor's wife isn't all that bad. Some days, I don't really know what the true definition is, but I just keep trying to surrender to Christ. I fail, most days. I mean, come on, I have 3 children under the age of seven. I'm lucky to get a bra fastened before lunch! Who knew, in 1998, when I said, "I Do," what I was saying I do to!
Today it was saying "I do" to my 2 daughters who were fighting madly over our single solitary pink marker! "I do mean it when I say neither of you can have it if you're going to fight over it!"
I do love my life. It's a challenging, but very rewarding life. I just have one request. Please don't look at me any different than any other mom. I know that my kids are "supposed" to be the kids that don't talk back and can spout off all kinds of bible verses upon request, but that's not real life. That's an expectation. I struggle with the same frustrations as other moms. How do I deal with it? Not so well, sometimes. I get ticked off and sometimes I even spew words that I can't say at church. I love Jesus and I know He has saved me. The only thing that seperates us is what our husbands do for a living. God has been so good to us, but sometimes I feel pastors and their wives are cast in a very rose-colored light that just doesn't give a realistic view. Like I have said, I wouldn't want to be any where else, but in the center of God's will. That being said, if I can be any more candid, I just want people to see me for me. I'm not perfect nor is my husband. He is a teacher of the word and will be held accountable by God for that, but besides that, he and I are sinners saved by grace.
I hope my rambling didn't come across as "Oh, poor me," but instead as an open view into the life of a pastor's family......
I just love real people.....it's a little long, but worth the watch: